I can't cope. Feeling desperate & very depressed

[issy]

As some of u know,my little sister is seriously ill in Hospital with a Brain Tumor :(
She's had it removed.but had loads of setbacks & serious fits. She's in ICU on a Ventilator whilst undergoing Chemo. Only a 40% chance of survival :(

I can't cope anymore & have turned to selfharming myself. I make myself sick & Cut myself. I've been doing this for 4 days now & it makes me feel so much better afterwards. I have scars but i cover them with my watch.

I can't talk to anyone about this,as my parents are distraught about lucinda & it would only make them worse. I also can't sleep,don't eat & wish i was dead :(.

Selfharming is the only way to make myself feel better. I used a knife to cut today & felt happier afterwards.

I know this is really bad,but i can't cope any other way. I just wanna die to get away from all this pain.

[Rashella]

I know its hard but try to stay strong for your family, when your sister gets better she might need a helping hand with things and you need to be ready to help her. Im sure she wouldnt want you to do this harming.

Your parents must be distraught about your sister, they need you to be strong too. If you cant stop self harming for yourself do it for your familys sake. Have you talked to another family member, like an aunt or something? They can probably help, or if not,a cpunsellor?

[XBr0ken-$mileX]

hey...i would like to say sorry on hearing about your sis and what has happened to her. but you got to remember no matter how much downs there is and how you feel like your life's shuttting down, u must remember to have your head high and positive thinking. 40% chance doesn't mean it's end of the world-besides there is still hope and i dont know if you've heard, but miracles do happen- and whatever fate it will be, be proud of your sister and remember the memories....

and about your self-harm, it's got to stop...it may seem as it helps or so, but in reality it just makes things worse. be brave have trust in yourself. it can get hard but with you head high, nothing is going to stop you. playing with knives or anything else may make you happy for a coulple of second but a permanent life regret...

you can cope with positive attitude as i have hope in you! U can DO it !!!!!!!!!


goodluck

[Forumfavorite]

Harming yourself just makes it worse. Just stop please. I understand your upset about your sister and I'm sorry for what's going on, but have you tried talking to your friends about it? or maybe you should do something that makes you happy like go to the mall or watch some movies or read a book.

[xMissIzzyx]

As some of u know,my little sister is seriously ill in Hospital with a Brain Tumor :(
She's had it removed.but had loads of setbacks & serious fits. She's in ICU on a Ventilator whilst undergoing Chemo. Only a 40% chance of survival :(

I can't cope anymore & have turned to selfharming myself. I make myself sick & Cut myself. I've been doing this for 4 days now & it makes me feel so much better afterwards. I have scars but i cover them with my watch.

I can't talk to anyone about this,as my parents are distraught about lucinda & it would only make them worse. I also can't sleep,don't eat & wish i was dead :(.

Selfharming is the only way to make myself feel better. I used a knife to cut today & felt happier afterwards.

I know this is really bad,but i can't cope any other way. I just wanna die to get away from all this pain.

I'm so sorry about your sister. That must be absolutely horrific for you all. But I don't think selfharming helps the situation. There must be other ways to get out your anger, sadness, whatever. There's other people to talk to other than your parents, what about friends, other family members etc? Selfharming isn't the only way to make yourself feel better, you just can't see any other way right now. I doubt you parents would wanna lose two children in the same year if the worst came to worst.

Your parents and sister would want you to be strong for her. She's in such a horrible situation and would probably appreciate her sister being there for her to support her give her the love she needs that might just make her better :)


Cutting's a horrible habit to quit but you can do it, you just need the right mental state of mind and the willpower. You need something to tune out the feelings to hurt yourself. Write down what you're feeling and then burn it. It gets rid of the bad feelings. Sounds silly but it works for me. Do the same instead of making yourself sick.

I really hope some of that helped. *hugglesqueeze*

[EceYenii]

self-harming is really bad..
but ii guess the only reason it helps uu,is becuz ur sister is suffering right now..
nd uu feel bad when uu dont understand her feelings..
thts the only psychological explanation for the way uu harm.

it might make uu feel better right now.but just think b4 duin it.how wud ur parents feel if uu past away?? Right at this moment..while theyre still dealing with ur sister's issues..just try to be calm.Read a book once in a while..it will take the stress nd ur mind away from everything. nd dont mess with ur health. eat normally, sleep tight..but dont forget to show love nd support to ur parents..
cuz they need it more then uu do right now..
remember even tho its ur sister..they r the ones who gave life to her..soo it feels like they r being tortured themselves..

nd im really sorry for her..but it doesnt mean that uu have to screw up ur life..
ii cnt even imagine wot i'd do..if tht wud happen to my sister..

Hope ii helped..pls dont forget to inform us..bout urself nd ur sister..
Ece..

[Kate]

Awhh i'm really sorry to hear that chick.
*virtual huggles*

[Leon]

Tapper, stop posting in this thread please, all future posts will be deleted, by me, unless they relate to Issy, if you want to talk about your problems, make your own thread.

[xMissIzzyx]

Thanks Leon :)

[Leon]

Deleted posts to get back onto topic....carry on people....

[sarahgirl_88]

girl, i had luikimia. and i had a 40% chance to i think.. n yea.. i got better. n im here alive. health and well =]. have hope girl. dont give up!!!

AND MORE IMPORTANTLY.. DONT HURT URSELF! NOTHING IS WORTH THAT.

trust me i speak from experience..

think about ur family and friends.. ur sister is hurting.. but its up 2 u 2 help her get through it.

life is hard. life is bad. life is easy. life is good.

u decide wat u want urs 2 be like..

the secret is .. not to think negative.

example:
"im gonna fail" = negative thinking. negative outcome.
"IM GOING TO DO GOOD" = possitive thinking. possitive outcome.

dont feed ur heart, mind, and soul negativities.

[jem]

sorry to hear about your sister. Like a few other people have said, stay strong for your family. I know it must be hard for you but imagine how your parents would feel if they faced losing you aswell as your sister. Think about what your sisters going through. Im sure she wants you to make the most of life because you never know when its goin to end.
again, sorry to hear about your sister, i hope it all works out for her ..and you.