Bah I just want to bugger off

[iaxa]

ggr. i thought everything was going a bit better. now everything is going down the shitter again i wish i wasnt here atm shaking. by tommorrow most of my friends will have most likely ditched me. my mum is hell upset because of me moving so she wont talk to me aswell as my getting a fucked up report card. :S i dunno what to do i just feel heaps guilty i kninda backstabed one of my friends. yet they all know i am a prick and i told the mto be warned and they still wanted be friends. so isnt it there fault it's not my fault i dont like most people. becuase most people are fuck tards. anyways i am over the girl i like ( i think i was always was over her i just liked the idea oof being with her) because i have had my chance and i think it is stupid to wait on something that is never going to happen.

the bad thing is if tommorrow ends up goign the way i think it is gonna go. i have to go to school there for another 9 weeks. i am sorry for what i said about them i guess i was just pissed off.

ever since my grandmother died i havent been the same i feel like i have been cursed or something like that just everything seems to go wrong.

i dont know what to do all i seem to be good atm is just making everyone around me pissed off. i completely bommed out on my report card. i just feel hell sad and lonely and i feel like i have gone to jump in a river and i cant get out i feel like i am drowning and no matter how hard i try to get to the surface i hurt someone whether it is friends or family. sometime i even question why i am alive if thats all i am good for :S

(Soz about not proof reading)

[miss foxy]

I know the the feelin but the best thing to do is talk to your m8ts about this all they may not forgive u but if there really was your friends they will!!!!!!

[xMissIzzyx]

Everyone has worth in life. You're here for a reason. Why would your friends ditch you? Real friends don't do that. Why did you backstab one of them? What did you do?

You're right in that there's no point waiting around for a girl, but you did say "over a girl I like", so that kinda implies you still like her? So you may not be over it?

I personally think you're probably still grieving over your grandmother's death. Grief does really strange things to people. Grades go down, communication gets difficult.. it's a very stressful thing losing someone you love. I know you think you're hurting people on purpose n there's nothing you can do about it but I'm sure there is something. Take some time to yourself, work out what it is that's making them sad or pissed off at you and then think of ways you can change it so it doesn't happen any more. Talk to people calmly, apologise for what you've been doing and explain that there's reasons behind it, stress, grief etc.

Good luck :)

[EceYenii]

Hmm yeahh ii agree with MissIzzy..
grief does things to a person.
just apologize to ur frnds..call ur mother talk to her. Tell her uu luvv her..
a bad report card isnt everything..ull do better the next 9 weeks..just try to stay up,nd dont throw urself to a river.. or anything. who knows maybe uu will cure cancer sumday..soo we might need uu!! =D..(ii hope this actually made u smile) nd if it didnt.sry imm having a bit of a fkkd up day myself..

ii hope everything will be better..
Ece..

[iaxa]

Everyone has worth in life. You're here for a reason. Why would your friends ditch you? Real friends don't do that. Why did you backstab one of them? What did you do?

You're right in that there's no point waiting around for a girl, but you did say "over a girl I like", so that kinda implies you still like her? So you may not be over it?

I personally think you're probably still grieving over your grandmother's death. Grief does really strange things to people. Grades go down, communication gets difficult.. it's a very stressful thing losing someone you love. I know you think you're hurting people on purpose n there's nothing you can do about it but I'm sure there is something. Take some time to yourself, work out what it is that's making them sad or pissed off at you and then think of ways you can change it so it doesn't happen any more. Talk to people calmly, apologise for what you've been doing and explain that there's reasons behind it, stress, grief etc.

Good luck :)

mmm i can bearly get two words in i feel kinda like a bad friend. i didnt stick up for any of my friends when they needed me. i chose them over some new prick who i would even call a friend. they are all still pretty cut at me. i guess there sick and tired of waiting for me to get back to normal.

[xMissIzzyx]

Ah... that sucks.
But you made a mistake, at least you realise that. Real friends don't get "sick and tired" of you, they should be helping you and supporting you.
Everyone makes mistakes.

[iaxa]

mmm 3 strikes and your out. there is only so much one person can take..