Undefined
October 8th '07, 09:11 PM
I like Zach.
I really like Zach.
I really really really like Zach.
He was once just a friend. Because we were in many of the same classes together, we would help each other study for tests, or if we didn’t understand the material. Later on, we had the same classes, but different periods, so we’d warn each other as to what would go on in the class and if the teacher collected homework.
Stemming from that, Zach became my confidant. I was always a erratic person, with a “thing” for ketchup, bridges, and metal bleachers (I’m sort of afraid of them…). He would talk to me, and make me feel better. And he would tell me about his life, and to this day I’m not sure if he truly fears anything the way I do. We’d spend hours on the phone, and we just seem to connect.
He then, one day, asked me to homecoming. Kelly, a friend of mine asked him if we were “officially boyfriend-girlfriend,” and he asked me if we could be. And so we are.
Now, I can’t seem to stop thinking about him. And I’m really wondering what he’s thinking. As much as he can read my thoughts by just looking at me (my face and hands reflect everything that I feel and think), I still have yet to decipher his own body language.
More specifically, I’m wondering what my own actions should be---
1. Would it be a bad thing to tell him that I can’t stop thinking about him? Would that creep him out?
2. Would it be too straightforward to tell him that I love him? Would it be better to tell him that “I think I love you.”?
My biggest fear and the root of all my concerns, questions, and wonderings of which it stems from—
I don’t want to scare him away, or be too straightforward, or too indecisive. I’m not exactly sure what he fell in love with, but I do know that he likes my intelligence (I’m not over-the-top, and usually almost break the curve, but I’m not an idiot. I try hard, and earn my position in the class. Side note—He is ninth in the class. And I don’t mean top 9%, I mean the ninth PERSON. As for my own class ranking, I’m up there, too.) I don’t want to scare him away.
I’m rash. I am bold. I easily give in to whims and fancies. I don’t hesitate to draw attention to myself, such as smashing a can during homeroom, or screaming “GO TEAM!” during a ralley. I say what I need to say, and I’m quirky when I say it. I’m quirky in general. I have numerous, uh… “Phobias,” the most promenant of which are ketchup, metal bleachers, and cave-ins. My eccentricity scares many people, and fascinates others. I don’t think he minds my quirks or fears, but I don’t want to scare him away. He helped me get over the fear of the middle of the gym floor by dancing with me, holding me close in a slow dance, during homecoming. And my heart was captured forever. My quirks and antics don’t scare him. I don’t want to scare him away by telling him that I can’t stop thinking about him or by telling him I love him.
I know normally it’s the guys that smother the girls, but I don’t want to smother him. I really don’t want to pressure him with the whole “throwing around the ‘Love’ word.” But I don’t know if he’d like it. I know I would. I already keep him up way too late and distract him with phone calls. I’d like to know, what is a guy’s take on all of this? How do you feel about the word “love?” Would it be creepy to tell him that I think about him all of the time? What do you think?
I really like Zach.
I really really really like Zach.
He was once just a friend. Because we were in many of the same classes together, we would help each other study for tests, or if we didn’t understand the material. Later on, we had the same classes, but different periods, so we’d warn each other as to what would go on in the class and if the teacher collected homework.
Stemming from that, Zach became my confidant. I was always a erratic person, with a “thing” for ketchup, bridges, and metal bleachers (I’m sort of afraid of them…). He would talk to me, and make me feel better. And he would tell me about his life, and to this day I’m not sure if he truly fears anything the way I do. We’d spend hours on the phone, and we just seem to connect.
He then, one day, asked me to homecoming. Kelly, a friend of mine asked him if we were “officially boyfriend-girlfriend,” and he asked me if we could be. And so we are.
Now, I can’t seem to stop thinking about him. And I’m really wondering what he’s thinking. As much as he can read my thoughts by just looking at me (my face and hands reflect everything that I feel and think), I still have yet to decipher his own body language.
More specifically, I’m wondering what my own actions should be---
1. Would it be a bad thing to tell him that I can’t stop thinking about him? Would that creep him out?
2. Would it be too straightforward to tell him that I love him? Would it be better to tell him that “I think I love you.”?
My biggest fear and the root of all my concerns, questions, and wonderings of which it stems from—
I don’t want to scare him away, or be too straightforward, or too indecisive. I’m not exactly sure what he fell in love with, but I do know that he likes my intelligence (I’m not over-the-top, and usually almost break the curve, but I’m not an idiot. I try hard, and earn my position in the class. Side note—He is ninth in the class. And I don’t mean top 9%, I mean the ninth PERSON. As for my own class ranking, I’m up there, too.) I don’t want to scare him away.
I’m rash. I am bold. I easily give in to whims and fancies. I don’t hesitate to draw attention to myself, such as smashing a can during homeroom, or screaming “GO TEAM!” during a ralley. I say what I need to say, and I’m quirky when I say it. I’m quirky in general. I have numerous, uh… “Phobias,” the most promenant of which are ketchup, metal bleachers, and cave-ins. My eccentricity scares many people, and fascinates others. I don’t think he minds my quirks or fears, but I don’t want to scare him away. He helped me get over the fear of the middle of the gym floor by dancing with me, holding me close in a slow dance, during homecoming. And my heart was captured forever. My quirks and antics don’t scare him. I don’t want to scare him away by telling him that I can’t stop thinking about him or by telling him I love him.
I know normally it’s the guys that smother the girls, but I don’t want to smother him. I really don’t want to pressure him with the whole “throwing around the ‘Love’ word.” But I don’t know if he’d like it. I know I would. I already keep him up way too late and distract him with phone calls. I’d like to know, what is a guy’s take on all of this? How do you feel about the word “love?” Would it be creepy to tell him that I think about him all of the time? What do you think?