The BIGGEST RANT ever...

[Astrantia]

Don't worry about the title... they'll be a shortened version below the long rant.



Even though this sounds so emo-like – my life is terrible. What annoys me so much I get jealous of the kids surrounding me with both sane working parents with tons of money and they have friends. But what I’m left is with a dead dad, a mentally ill mother who can’t work, a jerk of a brother and we live off £9,600 every year for all three of us. The kids in my top-set classes are getting iPod phones and game consoles when my mum can barely afford bills and spends around £100 on us each Christmas.


I know I should be glad with what I got, but I’m fed up of waiting for a better tomorrow. When I was eight, my mum went mad, dad lost his job and we lost the house. We moved schools and houses until my dad found a job again. But it always has to get worse for me. By the time, my dad finally found a new job he dropped suddenly dead a year later. My mum has been in and out of mental health units since I was 8. I’ve lived in six houses and moved five schools. I have no friends and I get bullied all the time. And to make it worse... I am very fat.


Gawd, I’m so annoying. But I just want to get this rant out of my system.

My brother is now a complete jerk. He has no manners; he insults me and mum all the time and is abusive to everything – even the kitten. He’s so messed up, he finds it funny to drag the kitten by it’s tail and he looks up to Hannibal Lecter :S. I reported him for hitting and bullying me to the school and they sent social services around. My brother has stopped hitting me ever since but he has whipped me with a belt when I was getting a drink last weekend.


On Friday, my mum and brother had a row about him being mean to me again. But it resulted to pushing and shoving (mainly my mum doing the pushing and shoving). So, my brother took my mum’s booze away as she actually does drink way too much. From one to two bottles of wine. However, my brother got drunk off mum’s booze and didn’t go to work the next day.


At school it’s still bad. I used to be a weirdo and caused a bad reputation to myself. Now, I’ve been more normal and learnt to socialise but kids seem not to want to be ‘friends’ with me. Unless they pity me because I’m a billy-no-mates with a dead dad – but this friendship lasts a few weeks until another friend gets jealous. But kids tease me for being poor and fat seeing that their father’s earn around 120k a year. The lucky sods go on three holidays a year and effing complain about their life... they haven’t witnessed their own mum threatening to kill their dad with a knife! The worst thing that has happened to them is that their cat died or something. The girls in my year are only around 13 to 14 and are already sleeping with numerous guys that are in college... gawd these girls are so stupid being taken advantage by ugly desperate college boys.

I get told I'm smart and clever but I'm not really clever. Yeah, I'm the cleverest in my school year but so effing what? it doesn't mean I'm happy. It doesn't mean I'm actually intelligent just that I get the grades. I'm not pretty at all because of my weight, even though I'm losing it I still feel ugly as sin.




I’m actually just fed up of life....


Shortened Version
1.) I'm one of the poorest kids in the school


2.) Me, my mum and brother live off £9,600k a year and other kids live off £120k a year


3.) I'm terribly jealous of all the kids in my school year particulary the ones in my set (the top set)


4.) I'm fed up of pretending to be grateful of what I have when everyone has more (apart from those starving people in the third world :()


5.) I'm fat as ****


6.) My brother is the biggest jerk alive, pulls kitten by the tail and verbally abuses me all the time. I mean seriously every second I'm in his sight.


7.) My mum is a bipolar drunk who cannot find work


8.) My dad is dead


9.) I have no friends (this isn't because I rant at people like this all the time - I actually
never do)


10.) Kids take the mickey out of me in school all the time as well


11.) I'm lonely and depressed


12.) I'm a fat ugly nerd


13.) I spend all weekend on my computer as can't do anything else.



I'm SO SO sorry for this rant. It must be torture for anyone to read it.

And I'm sorry for being an attention hoe >.> :horsebeating:If I was sorry I wouldn't post this damn thing xP

[Wacko1574]

WOW!! O_O.....no comment! :(

[sabrina]

That's alot to deal with...*speechless*

[Kate]

First of all, I want to say how much I sympathise with you. I want to give you a hug basically. Well..

1) Having less money doesn't mean you're any less worthy than the other kids at school. Money doesn't make happiness.

2) As long as you have a roof over your head, clothes to wear and food in your stomach, you don't really need much else. Please don't be intimidated by those families that earn so much money they don't know what to do with it.

3) Try not to be jealous, jealously is stupid. It makes you feel worse and it doesn't get you anywhere. You should be proud of yourself, not what you have around you.

4) Empathy with your mother would be a good thing to attempt. I don't know what condition she has, but sitting down with her and trying to understand her more can't go a miss. In a way, you should be greatful that you arent starving to death in a shelter made of plastic in extreme heats dehydrated and so ill you find it hard to move.

5) Fat or curvy? Both don't affect the person you are inside. It's what's inside that matters, like.

6) Keep the kitten out of your brothers way, if this doesn't change his attitude, stand up to him and put him in his place. Don't use violence, just tell him you're sick of his attitude, and if he doesn't stop abusing the animal you will use the law to restrain him.

7) Ahh, bipolar, I see. Manic depression is a severe condition, but there is help available. The NHS can offer some help for this kind of issue. And as for the alcoholism, there are many support groups out there. Have a look using Google UK. There is bound to be something near you.

8) My dad's dead too. But I moved on from it, and so can you. We all deal with grief in different ways, and getting over the fact he isn't coming back doesn't have to mean forgetting him all together. Just think about the positive times you had, shed a few tears, then move on from it. He'd be happy to see you're getting on with your life.

9) There are all sorts of ways to make friends. You can make friends on here :) You can try to get along with the people at school a bit better. Icebreakers may do the trick, helping people to warm to you.

10) There will always be kids that are pricks. Seriously. But they are the kids who will grow up and end up living in their own urine on street corners. So don't worry, they will get what's coming to them :)

11) Get a hobby, you are bound to make friends and keep yourself entertained that way. May be a sporty one to keep you healthy would be a good option :)

12) Oi, there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a nerd :P Nerds are the ones that make something of themselves. Being the smartest in your class is a good thing! It's something to be proud of! It's enviable! Don't feel so bad about being intelligent! :D

13) Go for a walk, like I said before get a hobby, read, try art, get into town and find some free museums and such that interest you. You'll make friends in no time :)

Keep your head up love, and if you need to talk/rant just message me :) Okay?

Kate.

[Leon]

Excellent post Kate, my post would be very similar indeed, rep+.

[Wacko1574]

awwwwwww Kate.....your amazing...+rep for ya too dear =)

[Gurp-Ipod]

Well my mums got a mental health condition to but she takes medication and that normally works. But when it doesn't she becomes really annoying.
She brings garbage off the streets thinking its worth something.
You can't talk to her, she's like a brick, whatever you tell her theres no response or she won't listena and do it again.
Becomes obsessed with something, last time it was cleaning.
Also becomes racists towards black people thinking there bad or something.
She argued with my dad who got mad at what she kept doing and had the police over some times, seeing them argue and the police was embarassing.
She had to be put in a hospital place when I was young.
But she normal right now.
My situation isn't as bad as you but I could give you some advice.

Okay I was fat in primary, still got a bit off a belly which sticks out but when I haven't eaten or wake up in the morning its thin. I didn't eat during Year 7 at school for some time and saved my dinner money. So I surpose that made me lose weight and I grew taller so the weight shifted.
You could try exercising, I wouldn't want to be in the house if I had to put up with that so go running or something. Take your mind off it unless somewthing really bad is happening and you might need to call the police because your mum or brother is doing something stupid or dangerous.
You could try getting a part time job.
I'm also in the top set at school, anyway trying to cope with your mum.
I just cut myself off, it helped. Don't make it your problem. Still love and care about her but if its messing you up try to still me empathic but letting it effect you where you feel bad.

Since your smart I surpose this will help your future if you work hard, go to college.
Education is the only real way of moving classes.

Hope this helped.