Confused with myself

[MysticFaith07]

I love my fiance so much and we are supposed to get married in almost a year but i fear that after we get married we won't have fun and go out. i have not done much in my lie including sneaking out of my house. these past few weeks i realized how boring i am because i don't go out to concerts not once went to only 2 fairs the only amusment park i visited out of school was hurshey park with the fam as a child.

I don't blame Steven for this i just want to live a little before we get married and i would love to do it with him. unfortunately we can't be together unless we are married because he is in the military. i'm so confused. sometimes i wonder if being with him is helping me be held back. yet with him i am the freest and actually go out do stuff and break rules. he brings out the side of me that will do things for me and not for everyone else no matter how i hurt.

i want to be with him i love him i just want to experience life and if i would prefer and love to experience it with him.
i try sometimes now to do it but school work friends and fam don't help me i feel trapped and closed off. when he is home no one bothers me and he helps me be who i want to be. i don't wish to depend on him but he is the only thing keeping me sane.

What can i do? what shoul i do?

[VraiCanon]

If you feel like you are going to be trapped and are unsure, don't get married.
You can still be with your fiancé but tbh if you feel like you're missing out on life etc maybe he isnt the one for you

[Rashella]

Have you had the opportunities to go out and just not been taking them?

First of all, I never knew there was a rule about military people having to get married, how does that work? You've been together so far, why the pressure to marry now?

You mention that you want to experience life with him, would marrying him change anything except your names on a piece of paper? Surely he'd work in the military and be away just as much?

And if your worried that you don't have fun now, getting married is the worst solution. You can go on as you are, and delay getting married. It's a big choice that you will have to live with for a long time, and you sound like your uncertain. You don't have to marry him to prove you love him, so don't let anyone pressure you into it for any reason.

[Shane]

If you have any doubts in your mind then marriage ain't gonna work hun. You need to be 100% sure about each other before you go through with it.

Start going out more now and see if you feel the same in a few months.

[MysticFaith07]

thanks