disenchanted with life

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im not depressed
upset
unhappy

im just not happy
not been happy with anything in years
nothing excites me anymore
i dont see any point in trying anymore
there isnt anything i can change no point in me being here
everything is slowly fuckin up anyway

keep gettin almost suicidal thoughts
not that i wanna die
just thinkin it would save me having to get up in the mornings


no energy anymore

[rosie1]

dont i excite you

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lol :)
its not that i dont find things interesting or exciting i just dont get into them
cant find anything to realli engage me

[-Michael-]

Tahli, you're the only reason I wake up in the mornings ahahhaa

[n0iZe]

lol :)
its not that i dont find things interesting or exciting i just dont get into them
cant find anything to realli engage me

A world without weed is a good world indeed.

;o

Just made that up.

[rosie1]

mayb if it didnt rain everyday you would be happier.. mayb thats why im so happy cause it hardly rains


i should excite everyone :D

[Tim]

you never know what the future holds nic so don't think that you'll never be happy, life is full of ups an downs int it ya know

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yer but i doubt thts gna happen like
meh
be r8 im sure

just havin a bad mornin

[milburn2008]

cheer up dude... u need to get laid.. plain and simple

pussy makes the heart grow stronger.

get laid get happy.. if all else fails turn to the weed dude coz u goin down like the titanic.

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lmfao
got leyed sat nite so its nt that
fuck it iv got ten mins to crack out my stuff so ill have a go

i find it hard to make new friends because i always get caught up in apperances and acting like something im not...or trying to act in a way that they might find likeable
but at the same time i smoke too much weed and im parranoid to fuck so even the friends i have im never sure about them or their intensions

i just came out of a 2 year relationship with somebody which ended with her telling me she didnt love me anymore which fucking killed it, she doesnt like me in tht way at all anymore but we keep on having sex and we proper shouldnt because it messes my head around

i havnt got any self confidence anymore i cant talk to girls and i have no idea how to act unless its to fake confidence...which im very good at but it usualy goes over the top and im not acting true to myself

my larger friend group has pretty much fallen appart and appart from a few very good friends i dont realli chill very much anymore and i miss them
but at the same time each group of mates is pulling me in a different direction and i dont know what to do i feel like im in limbo

i dont want to get up in the mornings because i dont see the point in my life i just seem to bum around taking drugs and very little else

arrrrrrgh soz rant over

[Tim]

even if you are acting confident, i knw exactly how your feeling, shagging your ex cnt help so id cut that out tbh, confidence will return it just takes time mate, and i hope me and shane etc have seen the real you, even if you put on a front u dnt have to around me an him cause shit happens ya knw, be ureself more around people an ull become a happier person

[milburn2008]

lmfao
got leyed sat nite so its nt that
fuck it iv got ten mins to crack out my stuff so ill have a go

i find it hard to make new friends because i always get caught up in apperances and acting like something im not...or trying to act in a way that they might find likeable
but at the same time i smoke too much weed and im parranoid to fuck so even the friends i have im never sure about them or their intensions

i just came out of a 2 year relationship with somebody which ended with her telling me she didnt love me anymore which fucking killed it, she doesnt like me in tht way at all anymore but we keep on having sex and we proper shouldnt because it messes my head around

i havnt got any self confidence anymore i cant talk to girls and i have no idea how to act unless its to fake confidence...which im very good at but it usualy goes over the top and im not acting true to myself

my larger friend group has pretty much fallen appart and appart from a few very good friends i dont realli chill very much anymore and i miss them
but at the same time each group of mates is pulling me in a different direction and i dont know what to do i feel like im in limbo

i dont want to get up in the mornings because i dont see the point in my life i just seem to bum around taking drugs and very little else

arrrrrrgh soz rant over

this is a life in itself.... i dont know what ya gunna do then mate.. u gunna need to seek some medical advice though coz this shit aint gunna go away on its own.

mate girls are like arseholes.... everyones got one.. but mosta them are just full of shit.

stay strong dude.

[Shane]

Mate, I know what it feels like to be down, you should know that.
Things do get better. And, even though you feel your friend group is falling apart, you'll always have a bunch of amazing friends to stand by you no matter what. :)
You should really stop sleeping with your Ex though. If it's hurting you that much then tell her exactly how you feel. it could help.

And, by the way, you've helped me this year more than most people. If it wasn't for you and Tim I don't think I'd have been able to cope at some points. :)

[lipgloss]

this is a life in itself.... i dont know what ya gunna do then mate.. u gunna need to seek some medical advice though coz this shit aint gunna go away on its own.

mate girls are like arseholes.... everyones got one.. but mosta them are just full of shit.

stay strong dude.

Gasp! :/
No ways....

Anyways, Nic. Life is like a coaster ride. There are plenty of ups and downs. You may be hitting a low in life now, but it's not going to last forever. Promise! Hang in there, yeah?
Wishing the best for you, hun. :)

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i just needed to get all of that stuff out and alot of my mates arnt quite the people to do that with
thanks for reading it and commenting
and just so ya know
i dont put on front with people i trust
or on the internet
so everybody on here knows how i rly am

[ficti0n]

You can't wait for good things to come you. You've got to make your own future and invest in yourself and your prospects.