clueless
April 1st '06, 04:12 PM
Hello everyone,
I know this is a pretty long post, but i would appreciate it if you could read it all in order to understand the whole story. I copied and pasted this from my blog, so here goes..
Currently, my primary concern is that of my friend. Following are some entries i wrote, over these past few weeks:
13th March, 2006: ''My friend was harming herself for a long period of time and i managed to pursuade her to seek help and thankfully, she decided to concentrate on the better aspects of her life, instead. For a few months she was fine, but recently she began to become withdrawn again and would only provide people who talked to her with one word answers. Today, i saw her in person, and she was still extremely withdrawn. She wouldn't look at me regardless talking to me. I let it go for a bit, realising that she needed her own space. I came back from lunch and saw her sitting with some of her friends, but she wasn't speaking. I glanced down at her (seeing that she was sitting) and saw, to my horror, blood trickling down her wrist. She had said that she wouldn't cut again and said i told her the next time she did, i wasn't going to sit back and let it carry on, instead i was going to talk to someone who could make a difference. That person in authority was our Headteacher. She had previos knowledge of my friend hurting herself, too, so it wasn't like i was betraying anyone. So i went and spoke to her about my friend. I saw my friend after the headteacher had spoken to her and was is really angry with me. im afraid this may have been at the expense of our frendship. I decided to do something because i know that regardless of what anybody says to her (her friends) she will not stop hurting herself. She also refused to see a professional and the only thing anyone could do was allow it to carry on. I myself, used to harm myself. I don't want her to regret it years later down when she has to start investing in scar removers.''
She read this some days later, and said that she acknowledged that i was only doing what any caring friend would do, given the circumstances. But later, she started blanking me and when i tried to talk to her, she used the 'get-lost-i-don't-want-you-interferring' line. So i let it be known that i would be there for her till the end and that i wasn't giving up just yet. A few days after that, she apologised.
27th March, 2006: ''We went to London, today. It was a 5 hour coach journey, and *the girl who this is about* sat next to me. Everything was fine. I asked whether she had hurt herself recently, and she said 'yes.' I asked her to show me her arm. She did. There were 3 new open wounds, clogged with fresh blood. It hurts. She said she 'didn't want to talk about it' but i talked anyway. She listened but didn't say anything. I assured her i wasn't speaking out of spite, to which she said ''i know.''
I don't know what happened after that. She quit talking to me. I asked her boyfriend to talk to her, seeing that he is one of the few people she actually pays attention to anymore.
This is what happened yesterday:
30th March, 2006: She still isn't talking to me. She got one of our friends to ask me this:
* says: ask how she wud feel if i fucked my arm up even more and came with bandages arnd my arm tm ?
31st March,2006: ''I was really scared yesterday night after she had made the comments about cutting so deep, she would require a bandage as to stop her clothes from being soiled. Last night, i made a firm promise to myself that if in the morning she did have a bandage on, i would not rest until she saw someone who she could talk to and who could help her. She came in today. Her arm was bandaged. I felt so helpless and angry, seeing her do this to herself time and time again. Why is it that something really dreadful has to happen before someone is brought back into reality? I still had the promise i had made to myself resounding in my head. So straight after registration, i went and talked to the Headteacher again and pressed her so hard until i was reassured that SOMETHING constructive was going to be done. I wrote her a letter after that, seeing that she isn't talking to me face to face. She read it. Don't know what she made of it though. I just hope and pray and she doesn't hurt herself too badly .. or worse still, take her own life. ''
I don't know what else i can do..
All replies greatly appreciated.
Thank you.:)
I know this is a pretty long post, but i would appreciate it if you could read it all in order to understand the whole story. I copied and pasted this from my blog, so here goes..
Currently, my primary concern is that of my friend. Following are some entries i wrote, over these past few weeks:
13th March, 2006: ''My friend was harming herself for a long period of time and i managed to pursuade her to seek help and thankfully, she decided to concentrate on the better aspects of her life, instead. For a few months she was fine, but recently she began to become withdrawn again and would only provide people who talked to her with one word answers. Today, i saw her in person, and she was still extremely withdrawn. She wouldn't look at me regardless talking to me. I let it go for a bit, realising that she needed her own space. I came back from lunch and saw her sitting with some of her friends, but she wasn't speaking. I glanced down at her (seeing that she was sitting) and saw, to my horror, blood trickling down her wrist. She had said that she wouldn't cut again and said i told her the next time she did, i wasn't going to sit back and let it carry on, instead i was going to talk to someone who could make a difference. That person in authority was our Headteacher. She had previos knowledge of my friend hurting herself, too, so it wasn't like i was betraying anyone. So i went and spoke to her about my friend. I saw my friend after the headteacher had spoken to her and was is really angry with me. im afraid this may have been at the expense of our frendship. I decided to do something because i know that regardless of what anybody says to her (her friends) she will not stop hurting herself. She also refused to see a professional and the only thing anyone could do was allow it to carry on. I myself, used to harm myself. I don't want her to regret it years later down when she has to start investing in scar removers.''
She read this some days later, and said that she acknowledged that i was only doing what any caring friend would do, given the circumstances. But later, she started blanking me and when i tried to talk to her, she used the 'get-lost-i-don't-want-you-interferring' line. So i let it be known that i would be there for her till the end and that i wasn't giving up just yet. A few days after that, she apologised.
27th March, 2006: ''We went to London, today. It was a 5 hour coach journey, and *the girl who this is about* sat next to me. Everything was fine. I asked whether she had hurt herself recently, and she said 'yes.' I asked her to show me her arm. She did. There were 3 new open wounds, clogged with fresh blood. It hurts. She said she 'didn't want to talk about it' but i talked anyway. She listened but didn't say anything. I assured her i wasn't speaking out of spite, to which she said ''i know.''
I don't know what happened after that. She quit talking to me. I asked her boyfriend to talk to her, seeing that he is one of the few people she actually pays attention to anymore.
This is what happened yesterday:
30th March, 2006: She still isn't talking to me. She got one of our friends to ask me this:
* says: ask how she wud feel if i fucked my arm up even more and came with bandages arnd my arm tm ?
31st March,2006: ''I was really scared yesterday night after she had made the comments about cutting so deep, she would require a bandage as to stop her clothes from being soiled. Last night, i made a firm promise to myself that if in the morning she did have a bandage on, i would not rest until she saw someone who she could talk to and who could help her. She came in today. Her arm was bandaged. I felt so helpless and angry, seeing her do this to herself time and time again. Why is it that something really dreadful has to happen before someone is brought back into reality? I still had the promise i had made to myself resounding in my head. So straight after registration, i went and talked to the Headteacher again and pressed her so hard until i was reassured that SOMETHING constructive was going to be done. I wrote her a letter after that, seeing that she isn't talking to me face to face. She read it. Don't know what she made of it though. I just hope and pray and she doesn't hurt herself too badly .. or worse still, take her own life. ''
I don't know what else i can do..
All replies greatly appreciated.
Thank you.:)