anonymous123
October 9th '06, 05:14 PM
i just wanted to say before you read this, that I'm glad this site was created.
im 16 and a junior in highschool. I'm also a former football player. Last night i had a dream about my past years in highschool. This never happened to me before in my dreams, but i cried. I miss the people i used to be close with in jr high. I never really thought about my ex-girlfriend, and i don't want to get back with her, but i remembered she was someone i could always talk to. Right now i feel everyone is distant from me. We talk, but if i take the initiative in planning to do something with any of them, they never let it go through. I feel like there's a rumor about me going on for a year, and i don't know what it is. When i was a freshman my sister told me you'll lose your friends and find other people to hang out with, i ofcourse asked why and was denying that it could ever happen. Freshman year i was very close with them, parties and a lot of fun on the weekend. freshman-sophomore summer the same thing but like everyday. My parents used to tell me to stop hanging out with so many people and to just relax for a day or two. Sophomore year footbal was great and so was track. it kept me off any pressures going in my life. sophomore to junior year, i went to 0 people's houses, i maybe hanged out twice with my friends, and this was the beginning of the summer. now n junior year, its been three months and i when i approached one of my best friends, he ignored me. the others say hi once in a while, but usually its only when i greet them. It seems everyone is already in a new group and im the loner. i always thought being a loner was sad, but now im one and i feel very bad. This year, a lot of people know me, and socialize with me but only when i go out there and actually start a conversation. No they aren't shy its like they're all focused on there lives, i am too ofcourse for the ACTs, and school. I decided no athletics this year so i could keep my focus, but all i really think i've done is cause me to not handle my pressures. A girl on friday asked me what i was doing this weekend. I simply said nothing really. I asked her what about her and she said going to a party and hanging out with my friends to watch movies. I was telling the truth and i didn't want people to invite me places only if i asked. im sick of doing that, for once i want a friend to invite me somewhere. I still have no solution to my long depression. Have any of you guys or girls been in a similiar situation? Please let me know what you've done and how it may of helped. Im not giving up hope, but its been a while since i've actually gone somewhere on the weekend.
im 16 and a junior in highschool. I'm also a former football player. Last night i had a dream about my past years in highschool. This never happened to me before in my dreams, but i cried. I miss the people i used to be close with in jr high. I never really thought about my ex-girlfriend, and i don't want to get back with her, but i remembered she was someone i could always talk to. Right now i feel everyone is distant from me. We talk, but if i take the initiative in planning to do something with any of them, they never let it go through. I feel like there's a rumor about me going on for a year, and i don't know what it is. When i was a freshman my sister told me you'll lose your friends and find other people to hang out with, i ofcourse asked why and was denying that it could ever happen. Freshman year i was very close with them, parties and a lot of fun on the weekend. freshman-sophomore summer the same thing but like everyday. My parents used to tell me to stop hanging out with so many people and to just relax for a day or two. Sophomore year footbal was great and so was track. it kept me off any pressures going in my life. sophomore to junior year, i went to 0 people's houses, i maybe hanged out twice with my friends, and this was the beginning of the summer. now n junior year, its been three months and i when i approached one of my best friends, he ignored me. the others say hi once in a while, but usually its only when i greet them. It seems everyone is already in a new group and im the loner. i always thought being a loner was sad, but now im one and i feel very bad. This year, a lot of people know me, and socialize with me but only when i go out there and actually start a conversation. No they aren't shy its like they're all focused on there lives, i am too ofcourse for the ACTs, and school. I decided no athletics this year so i could keep my focus, but all i really think i've done is cause me to not handle my pressures. A girl on friday asked me what i was doing this weekend. I simply said nothing really. I asked her what about her and she said going to a party and hanging out with my friends to watch movies. I was telling the truth and i didn't want people to invite me places only if i asked. im sick of doing that, for once i want a friend to invite me somewhere. I still have no solution to my long depression. Have any of you guys or girls been in a similiar situation? Please let me know what you've done and how it may of helped. Im not giving up hope, but its been a while since i've actually gone somewhere on the weekend.