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November 27th '06, 06:02 PM
Okay...Here goes nothin'... Me and this guy have been close friends for what will be three years now. By close I mean, when we first met we chilled in school together all the time because we had practically every class together, we talked for hours on the phone almost every night, and we hung out on the weekends playing videogames, watching movies, eating pizza...
*Sounds great, no?*
Okay same old story. Now, post-puberty, Kingdom Hearts II, and a First Person Shooter Later, everyone has grown up. When I moved away in the middle of my junior year, that pretty much put the wrap on our friendship- in terms of physically being together, that is. we talked on the phone all the time. After I moved, it was like I never left. It didn't even phase him that there wouldn't be that short stroll to AP US anymore or the short glance at each other in the hallway after Chem. *meanwhile, I was cowering under my sheets, praying to my Buddha shrine that he never lets me go* All in all, it felt awesome to be friends no matter what.
*Now the real game begins...*
Senior year. Boom. There. I've said enough. Between college applications and SAT Scores alone, I'm constantly on edge. I get migraines on a weekly basis at the thought of tution, scholarships, everything. It's so overwhelming. So naturally, you would think that my escape route would be to my close friend, right. my fall out boy, so to speak. but he's not there. he doesn't know anything I'm going through right now. he's not there in a sense that he's very inconsiderate.
While he's having an awesome time in his college classes that actually count for his senior year, I'm cringing in my penny loafers, just trying to make my way through high school. and alone, just to add {cuz lets just say i havent adapted well to the new 'hood}. he'e not interested in my life, what i'm going through...jesus, he hasn't even asked if I've applied anywhere.
so i need my friend but he's not there, hes not interested in my life and i don't know how to approach someone so conceited anymore so the best i could do is not call him and leave things unsaid. but that worries me so much because i don't want to just forget about him. i care about him a lot and he may not know it, but i think about him all the time. but he has such a stubborn and careless way of going about our friendship that i don't bother. all we ever talk about is food, strippers, videogames, and crude jokes. I'm over it. I'm not 15 anymore.
sorry for ranting. any advice?
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*Sounds great, no?*
Okay same old story. Now, post-puberty, Kingdom Hearts II, and a First Person Shooter Later, everyone has grown up. When I moved away in the middle of my junior year, that pretty much put the wrap on our friendship- in terms of physically being together, that is. we talked on the phone all the time. After I moved, it was like I never left. It didn't even phase him that there wouldn't be that short stroll to AP US anymore or the short glance at each other in the hallway after Chem. *meanwhile, I was cowering under my sheets, praying to my Buddha shrine that he never lets me go* All in all, it felt awesome to be friends no matter what.
*Now the real game begins...*
Senior year. Boom. There. I've said enough. Between college applications and SAT Scores alone, I'm constantly on edge. I get migraines on a weekly basis at the thought of tution, scholarships, everything. It's so overwhelming. So naturally, you would think that my escape route would be to my close friend, right. my fall out boy, so to speak. but he's not there. he doesn't know anything I'm going through right now. he's not there in a sense that he's very inconsiderate.
While he's having an awesome time in his college classes that actually count for his senior year, I'm cringing in my penny loafers, just trying to make my way through high school. and alone, just to add {cuz lets just say i havent adapted well to the new 'hood}. he'e not interested in my life, what i'm going through...jesus, he hasn't even asked if I've applied anywhere.
so i need my friend but he's not there, hes not interested in my life and i don't know how to approach someone so conceited anymore so the best i could do is not call him and leave things unsaid. but that worries me so much because i don't want to just forget about him. i care about him a lot and he may not know it, but i think about him all the time. but he has such a stubborn and careless way of going about our friendship that i don't bother. all we ever talk about is food, strippers, videogames, and crude jokes. I'm over it. I'm not 15 anymore.
sorry for ranting. any advice?
Edit: Messenger addy removed, please use the forums or private messaging (after signing up) for contact, this is to protect your personal details.