I just don't know anymore

[doodledean]

I've been feeling so depressive these days. It seems like nothing does the trick anymore. I've had experience with this feeling down buisness and it just led to a horrible path that I don't want to go down again. I feel like nothing matters anymore. I feel like everything matters. I'm so confused. I wish I could say I have the comfort of having parents who listen but I don't. To my parents I'm their comfort. I put a smile on my face like nothing is happening. To my friends I'm their comfort also. I have to pretend that everything is fine. I have to pretend that I have nothing wrong with my life. I feel like a fool. I feel like no matter what I can't be my old self I can only pretend. I just need to know that I'm not the only person who going through this. If I don't get replies it's ok. It just feels good to vent and maybe have a person read it.

[Ragnarok]

Wow... we're neearly the same...
For me, it feels like my parents wish I was someone perfect. Doing chores all the time. Eating vegetables. Being tallest in class. Being PERFECT. I wish that I could tell them: "Sorry, but I don't swing that way."

Anyway, I would just advice you to talk to your parents. Or maybe even talk to a close friend. Believe me, I always feel at comfort when I'm with my friends than my family...

[dhenyck]

it's nomal for us to feel more comfortable wih our friends ...were youth, we like adventures and thrills...that's the main reason why..

[Rashella]

Same as me, i am going through hell for personal reasons.
My family are all upset and expect me to be strong, even though its my problem. Sometimes i just dont have the space to cry myself, tryna reassure everyone else and be strong for them. Making them laugh and acting normal.

Im confused too, some days im so miserable my teeth hurt, sometimes i forget whats wrong. But when i have bad days i just focus on good things, and what i do have.

[doodledean]

it sucks though not trying to sound like a whining teenager but people can't truely understand you unless they are you i just wish my parents were like forums sometimes you could vent and they would hear you

[2Emo4U]

I totally understand u,,nd im going thru the same thing.but nobody knws tht...i cry everday,while sitting in my room alone!..but whn my parents come and check on me like. wt im duin or smth,,i just smile nd say hw..thts how it goes,cuz i have trust issues,nd i dnt trust ppl at all..not even my parents...i cnt say my life sucks,,but i cant say its perfect either..nd the problem is tht idk..yy im soo wiird..like u knw whn the guy i liked actlly mssed up my life..i tried to cut..just to c if itd hurt more thn my heart..i knw tht sounds pretty cheesy but seriously the pain tht i felt physically ws nthng compared to the pain i felt emotionally...th only thng i wnt right now is to get the FUCK out of mscw!! cuz its the only place i cnt stand biing!!

[2Emo4U]

I totally understand u,,nd im going thru the same thing.but nobody knws tht...i cry everday,while sitting in my room alone!..but whn my parents come and check on me like. wt im duin or smth,,i just smile nd say hw..thts how it goes,cuz i have trust issues,nd i dnt trust ppl at all..not even my parents...i cnt say my life sucks,,but i cant say its perfect either..nd the problem is tht idk..yy im soo wiird..like u knw whn the guy i liked actlly mssed up my life..i tried to cut..just to c if itd hurt more thn my heart..i knw tht sounds pretty cheesy but seriously the pain tht i felt physically ws nthng compared to the pain i felt emotionally...th only thng i wnt right now is to get the FUCK out of mscw!! cuz its the only place i cnt stand biing!!

[doodledean]

I understand and your not weird at all. I'm like that all the time. And I used to cut. I just wish I could be happy instead of feeling depressed. Who knows maybe we're the normal ones and everyone else is weird

[OMFGIDC]

I feel the same.
As much as it would break my parents' heard if they ever thought I couldn't talk to them, it's the truth.

[doodledean]

Parents want their life to seem perfect. I remembered when I used to cut my mom saw the scars on my arms but she wouldn't say anythin

[tf_arl_90]

Life is tough sometimes, unfortunately. It helps knowing you're not completely alone though, right? I hope it does.

When I get like that, I try to remember that I have the rest of my life to meet someone who will understand me for who I am. I believe I will eventually reach a point where I am content with everything. Troubles will never entirely go away, but I'll do a better job at handling them. In order to lessen the time it takes to reach this point, I have to remain optimistic, good spirited, and keep trying at everything I do.

It's frustrating sometimes, sure, but it's the best thing you can do if you want to reach that point.

[doodledean]

I understand what you say and I agree that it's frustrating I just wish I could keep a positive attitude on every situation