Depression...

[Stephanie]

Who here is or knows someone who is depressed or has been depressed before? And what was the reason for it?

I for one used to be depressed. I was depressed all through year 7, 8, 9 and then I moved schools this year and slowly but eventually was cured of it!! I have a family history of it so I was likely to get it anyway. My mother had pre-natal depression and my brother had pretty serious depression in his late teens and I wouldn't be surprised if my other brother had it and if my dad has it. My auntie and her son (my cousin) are also depressed.

The reason for my depression was because I was getting really badly bullied in year 7 by this stupid bitch who spread all these awful false rumours about me and telling people that I said awful things about them so that nobody would like me and want to talk to me and she also made an email address that looked very similar to mine and sent all these dreadful emails to herself and showed heaps of people so that everyone would think that I was an awful person. So to cut a long story short, she ruined my life, nobody would talk to me...it was awful. In primary school I used to be really loud and outgoing and I was all into drama and acting and being on stage and the centre of attention but then when I went to high school and got bullied by this mega bitch I suddenly became quiet, shy, withdrawed from everyone and had absolutely no self esteem! I even quit drama which was like a stab in the heart because as a young girl I always dreamed about being an actress and being on TV and all that and then in one year my life suddenly felt like it wasn't worth living and that I would never achieve my life goals.

I also took a lot of risks because I didn't feel life was worth it at all anymore. I was completely careless on roads. I would just cross without even looking hoping that a car would be driving at that moment. I almost got hit numerous amount of times but the driver who almost hit me would always slam on the breaks just in time and shout swear words at me (which I now understand was totally understandable…but at the time I didn’t think so)…and my parents would always scream at me for being so careless.

Anyway, soon enough my homeroom teacher sent me to the counselor because it was obvious I was depressed. I seriously never smiled at that stage. But the counselor turned out to be a total idiot. She didn’t help me in the slightest. She just made things a whole lot worse for me. She called in the bully and me and sat us together to talk about it and the bully just pretended to cry and cry and said that I was the one bullying her and all this other rubbish so the counselor comforted her and told me that I was obviously the bully and this bitch was the victim. And then when we got out of the counseling session, the bully told EVERYONE that I was such a baby that I even dobbed on her to the teachers!!! Which of course made my life even more miserable!!

Luckily, by year 8 I was cleared from almost all of her rumours and found myself a new group of friends. They weren’t overly nice to me but at this point I was just glad to have friends. I was still depressed and still constantly thought of suicide. Year 9 came and I realized that these girls were definitely not treating me right but I felt that I should just be grateful because it didn’t matter where I would go I would be treated the same. And I even began to feel that the constant thoughts of suicide were normal!! By the end of year 9, my brother demanded I move schools because he thought I was turning into a private school snob…so I moved to a public school this year and made the GREATEST friends I have ever made in my whole entire life and have never been more happy in my whole entire life!!! I am just so happy these days and when I think back to the days when I almost got hit by cars, I’m glad that God has given me another chance and saved me from those cars because today I am sooo glad to still be alive!!

[richie_rich_rich18]

Erm....maybe if you actually had the problem now, then one of us could help but because your discussing it, there's no point of having this topic because theres nothing to answer!!

[Bob!]

I think shes just askin if anyone is, or has been depressed in the past, and if so why and if it was dealt with then, how.

Edit: Sorry, i guess it does tie in with health and fitness, depression is a condition, and if you're depressed then ur not mentally fit. (at the time)

[Stephanie]

I think shes just askin if anyone is, or has been depressed in the past, and if so why and if it was dealt with then, how.

Yep...exactly what I'm asking.

But how come it got moved to the Advice Related section? I don't need any advice...?

[xXxI.Got.Them.Emo.EyesxXx]

It's more of an advice thing than a general.

I went through a period of depression when I was like...14? I think? Somewhere around there. My stepsister had been killed and my family had alot of problems. My friends bailed out on me because of the entire situation and I went numb for about 4 months.

After a while I got myself out of it.

[Stephanie]

It's more of an advice thing than a general.

I went through a period of depression when I was like...14? I think? Somewhere around there. My stepsister had been killed and my family had alot of problems. My friends bailed out on me because of the entire situation and I went numb for about 4 months.

After a while I got myself out of it.

Awww...I'm sorry to hear that *hugs* how did your step sister get killed?

[xXxI.Got.Them.Emo.EyesxXx]

She was murdered. It was a huge scandal.

[Stephanie]

She was murdered. It was a huge scandal.

OMG!!!! How old was she at the time and did they ever catch the criminal??!!

[xXxI.Got.Them.Emo.EyesxXx]

She was 33, and her husband killed her then killed himself, so there really wasen't anyone to catch.

[Stephanie]

She was 33, and her husband killed her then killed himself, so there really wasen't anyone to catch.

That is sooo sad....I'm really sorry to hear that!! I've always hated the idea of guns in the home! Did you and your family like her husband in the first place?

[xXxI.Got.Them.Emo.EyesxXx]

Nah, but there were alot of drugs and stuff involved.

I've nothing agaisnt guns in the home. I have my own pistol. It was just an unfortunate situation.

[Stephanie]

I have my own pistol.

Does it have bullets? Do you know how to use it?

[xXxI.Got.Them.Emo.EyesxXx]

Yes, it has bullets, and yes, I know how to use it.

[~sexy_biatch~]

I havnt been depressed, ever. I have no reason to be. Hell ive said I am a million times before..usual reasons; lads, mates, other stuff
but when i say it I dont mean it!
Ive helped people out of depression before, my mate slit her wrists, and another mate (the one who had sex when she wa 14, from the other post) held a big big sharp knife to her neck :| it was horrible.

[in_love]

my "friend" has depression, i used to care so much about her, but then she decided to hate me for no apperent reason, and refuses to talk to me. i have no idea why she has depression, i found out when i saw her try and kill her self.

[Oxide]

I had my own battle with depression about seven months ago. You know where you just have those days where nothing seems to go right? I think I just had one too many of those days and it just sent me over the edge. I got into the whole self-harming thing (for what it's worth, don't do it. It really does make more problems than it solves), but thankfully I had my friends to help me out and now I'm back to my normal old self (in whatever way the word 'normal' can be applied to me that is).

[*fender.chiq*]

I went through some hard times between year 7 or year 8, so I was around 12 or 13. Everything just seemed to go wrong, I wasn't happy with myself or inside myself. I kind of, withdrew. I didn't want to talk to anyone about what I thought or what was happening, because I was a very private person. My independance told me I could handle all the little problems by myself and it was my private business. Well, it doesn't seem to happen like that. All my little problems just started seeming bigger and bigger in my mind and I couldn't cope.

I was sad most of the time, and worst of all, I hated myself. I hated how I looked.

I guess that's one of the reasons I have only a tiny bit of self confidence/esteem when it comes to my looks. But, you know, if I don't love myself, then who will?It's tough though. Even now. People pay me a compliment, and I just have to try and blag my way through it, pretend I know what they mean and am grateful - but deep down I just think, 'What the hell are they on about? That's not true.' I just don't believe how people an see me as anything more than just a regular, boring person.

I eventually turned to my friend. I was pretty close to her at the time, and she prised little things out of me, and before I knew it I was telling her everything. It felt so much better after, like the air was clear. My little problems were minute, non-existant or forgotten. I felt I could handle things much better.

I never turned to self harm; but I often thought about how people would be better off without me being here. I just seemed to be getting in the way or causing problems for them. I felt like a spare part. I guess I never had the guts to actually hurt myself - I'm terrified of pain, I won't do things which I think could result in me getting hurt physically. I'm weak like that.

But I guess in the end, it was a good thing my problems were sorted when they were, otherwise they'd've just gotten worse.

[Mamfy]

I don't think I've ever been in proper depression but I recal a period of my life where I felt so down and rubbish. Everything seemed to be going wrong, in my family, with my friends, with school, everything. I just couldn't cope, and it pushed me away from everyone and everything.

I used to think of self harm as being a way out, but once I did it once, and thought about leaving for good, someone was there to show me the light, and show me that no matter how hard life gets, it is not worth losing it over a few little minute problems.

I now think that self harm is terrible. It doesn't get you any where but in pain. It causes more trouble than it is worth. There are plenty of other things you can do to help you through tough times, and although self harm seems to be the thing everyone turns to in their times of need, it shouldn't be.

I am happy to say I never want to be depressed again, and I hope I never get back to that again. I am happy now and I am enjoying my life. At the end of the day, you cannot put a price on life. It is precious, we should not take advantage of it because this is our only shot at it, once it is gone we will neve rhave it again so we might as well make the most of it while it is here

[SG's lil babe]

I've cut myself a lot of times because I was so down. I was in a relationship at the time but the person didn't even notice. When we split I tried to end it all but now I can see that they aren't worth it and I'm better without them.

[Sponge'K'nob]

do you still cut yourself?
if you dont then what made you stop...like did you get help or anything?